Monday, January 15, 2007: to break the hiatus...
dont really feel the urge to blog because i have to spend alot of time thinking about what to blog about. i really wanted to blog about fusion, but then now that it has passed, i cant really remember my exact feelings about it, and to write it now, would mean my account of it wouldnt be as accurate as i felt on that day. oh woe be to my atrocious short-term memory! how forgetful i am.
anyway, i shall give a short account of it anyway:
in essence, fusion 2007 was pretty good, i feel! especially the saturday programme. i was placed in the youth leadership workshop in the end. and i must admit, despite feeling rather unhappy about not getting into the youth outreach one, in the end, pastor benny ho really kept me fuelled up for discipleship and to grasp a better concept of why there is a need to be discipled and mentored to. i feel more equipped and challenged to disciple someone in the years to come in OCF. hopefully i will be a useful vessel of God in this area! actually come to think about it, God really knows what is best for me at the right time. if you look back a few posts earlier, i couldnt decide on which workshop to go to and i was praying for Him to close the door to one. perhaps this was the closed door.. i wonder if it was coincidence, or an answered prayer. but ah well, what is important is that i benefit from fusion, and i say! i did! (: so that was good.
i think another important thing i've learnt through this period of time was to not judge people so easily. all along i've been pretty skeptical towards other people, especially in their sense of worship to God, and rather adamant that my gut feeling towards their expression is a correct reflection of their true inner feelings. i felt rather guilty actually, when i felt convicted of this overly critical habit of mine, and i was reminded of the verses that i came across during QT a few nights ago.
" You therefore, have no excuse, you who pass judgment on someone else, for at whatever point you judge the other, you are condemning yourself, becuase you who pass judgment do the same things. Now we know that God's judgment against those who do such things is based on truth. So when you, a mere man, pass judgment on them and yet do the same things, do you think you will escape God's judgment? Or do you show contempt for the riches of his kindness, tolerance and patience, not realising that God's kindness leads you toward repentance? But because of your stubbornness and your unrepentant heart, you are storing up wrath against yourself for the day of God's wrath, when his righteous judgment will be revealed. God will give to each person according to what he has done. To those who by persistence in doing good seek glory, honor and immortality, He will give eternal life. But for those who are self seeking and who reject truth and follow evil, there will be wrath and anger." Romans 2:1-8
so yes, less judgment from me! God will do the judging. i should seek the right things to please God!
anyway,
this week is like, the last full week left in singapore! i dont know if i should spend it resting or going out as much as possible with friends. BUT, i guess i cant really hang out with j2s anymore since sch has started and poly people have exams. haii, oh well! how quick time passes, its been 2 months, almost, in singapore already. so much accomplished, so much memories in just this short period of time. blah! how sad that i have to leave so soon! oh well, but i guess if even if i leave in feb i will still harbour the same mixed feelings about leaving, so no difference! so i guess i have to be forward looking! and be excited for uni (:
cant wait to go prowling for food in geylang with the ocf-ers on wed night (: how exciting!
a shout of praise.
6:13 PM
